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Hi. i LOVE literature. If you want to talk about any of the books you see below PLEASE talk to me.

The types of books i'm always on the lookout for are strange, bizzare, disturbing books with ethereal writing and delves into psychological/philosophical themes. if you have a book in mind that i might be interested in, i BEG YOU to recomend it to me. Look into the pitiful eyes of the possum in the corner. I'm BEGgINg you (with love)

If there is a bookbug club button above the title, that means that that book was a club's pick and you will find a duplicate of that review in my bookbug page.

Curious about what books i'd like to read in the future? click here

> PERFUME
> NAKED LUNCH
> THE BOOK OF DISQUIET
> NAUSEA
> DESPAIR
> SPEAK, MEMORY
> ADA, OR ARDOR
> THE HOUR OF THE STAR
> A BREATH OF LIFE
> PANENKA
> DRIVE YOUR PLOW OVER THE BONES OF THE DEAD
> HEART OF A DOG
> MARTYR!


  THE COLLECTOR

  JOHN FOWLES


  Year published: -- 1963

  Time read: -- oct.2-oct.9 2025






SPOILER-FREE REC:
A rich guy collects butterflies as a hobby, and it seems like he has his eye on a certain specimen -- a beautiful woman. All he wants is to keep her. What I liked about the book was that it explored the relationship between a kidnapper and a kidnapee and it touches on the unfortunate subject of dehumanisation. I finished the book very quickly -- the plot hooked me, especially when it got to Part 2. I think it's a good book!

THOUGHTS!! ^•^

I devoured this book. It was really entertaining and the story succesfully hooked me. Especially because I have been reading a lot of plotless/vibe-based books lately -- the last two books I read were Lispector's so it was a nice refresher to read something with more structure.

My favourite section was Miranda's diary. I did not expect that we'd get to see her perspective but I'm really glad we did. Even though it repeats the same events we already read about through Fredrick's POV, I found it very interesting to find out how M saw things and how the two characters percieved the same situation. Also, the transition between the two POVs was quite startling. What I mean is that for about a hundred pages we're in the mind of this "totally chill guy" who wrote his thoughts with proper structure and novel-like format, (yes yes i know that's because it's a novel) and nothing was "off" about his writing. It was like F was convincing us that we shouldn't take the situation seriously. That it's all normal. And then all of a sudden the mood switches and M writes with short, incomplete sentences and repeats many phrases. It really striked me. The poor girl was really, really, truly suffering in there. I don't know how to explain it but there the book took on a more frightening, desperate note. Kudos to John Fowles for effectivley giving me a shock and for giving M a voice.

My only complaint is that I was a little bit disappointed with the ending. While reading the book I was always thinking Is F going to set her free? Is he going to kill her? Is there any redemption in him at all? and How will M fight back? Will she see her family again? Will she accept the situation? However none of those things happened. M just got an illness and died. The author completely avoided writing the conclusions to his characters' development. I felt like something should have happened. M didn't deserve that end and F didn't deserve for the situation to resolve itself. I guess in a way he did actually kill her. Maybe I'm being being a little biased -- maybe that was the author's point. Bad things happen to good people. Good things happen to bad people. Fate can make its own decisions. I dunno. I'm curious to hear other bugs' opinions on this.

Last point I want to make is that I realized that many authors make the connection between collecting butterflies and psycopathic behaviour. And by "many authors" I mean Vladimir Nabokov, my beloved. He was obsessed with that theme and it was evident in the two books of his that I read, Lolita and Pale Fire. I guess Fowles saw the symbolism in it as well.

I didn't collect any quotes because oops. Anyway, this was overall an great read and I'm glad I read it. Didn't even know this book existed until the club's october poll.

  THE APPLE IN THE DARK

  CLARICE LISPECTOR


  Year published: -- 1961

  Original language: -- Portugese

  Translator: -- Benjamin Moser

  Time read: -- sep.8-oct.5 2025 [dnf]


SPOILER-FREE REC:
This book is understandably not for everyone. The plot is barely existant and the writing is drawn out. However, I did actually kinda like this one, even though i dnf it. If you want to step into Lispector's world I reccomend choosing another book, especially one that is shorter lol. But I don't regret picking this one up. Read at your own risk.

THOUGHTS!! ^•^

Hmm... strange book... Although I DNF this one I will admit that I actually did like it for some reason. It's very slow and it was nice to read after coming home from a long shift. I read 3/4 of it before I said to myself that I should leave it. I wanted to finish it, though. I stopped after Martim and Vitoria's conversation by the tree that was meant to be chopped down.

This one was a bookbug pick in the past and it seemed like the majority of members really did not like this one. I understand why. It's mostly based on writing about nonsense, (or at least, what feels like nonsense to readers,) and the plot is paper-thin. The premise is interesting, in my opinion--guy on the run after a crime but we never find out what the crime is. Under a different author I feel like this book could've been widely beloved.

I liked the moment on p.44 where Martim realizes he accidently killed the bird. I like subtle symbolic moments like that. I was hoping that was the route the story would take. On another note, I thought Ermelinda's character was interesting. She said something I understood, something I felt at some point in my life:

--Look at this fern! she said to the man because a person can't say "I love you."

It's hard to extract phrases from Lispector because everything she writes comes from what she wrote before(?) so this quote on its own sounds incomplete. But anyway, I related to this. I say to my best friend, "The sunset is beautiful," and when I say this, what I'm really saying is that she means a lot to me.

But my favourite quote comes from Martim who bursts,

--We don't know where we come from and we don't know where we're going, but we experience, we experience! and that's what we've got, Ermelinda, that's what we've got!

I wholeheartedly agree. Dare I say it's my life philosophy. Anyway... overall I kinda like this book but my impatience overcame me.

  AGUA VIVA

  CLARICE LISPECTOR


  Year published: -- 1973

  Original language: -- Portugese

  Translator: -- Stefan Tobler

  Time read: -- approx. july.2025


SPOILER-FREE REC:
Do you like beautiful writing? This "poem in prose form" is an 88-page-long stream of conciousness touching on themes of time, life, death, and personal exploration. This is currently my favourite book and there is one condition if you want to read it: don't annotate and don't try to make sense of it. Just float down the river with Lispector as she attempts to capture the "instant-now."

" Let me tell you: I'm trying to seize the fourth dimension of this instant-now so fleeting that it's already gone because it's already become a new instant-now that's also already gone. Everything has an instant in which it is. I want to grab hold of the is of the thing. These instants passing through the air I breathe: in fireworks they explode silently in space. I want to possess the atoms of time. And to capture the present, forbidden by its very nature: the present slips away and the instant too, I am this very second forever in the now. "

THOUGHTS!! ^•^

I knew this book would become my favourite before I even finished it. It's so enchanting and hypnotic, my only regret is that I didn't spread the reading out so that it could last longer. I first approached this book with a pen as my bookmark so that I could make notes on it and try to "figure out" what was going on. That was a mistake. It was exhausting and an impossible task because there was nothing to figure out, there was just there. So about ten pages in I read

" What I tell you should be read quickly like when you look. "

and I realized that she was right. It felt like Clarice was trying to imitate the speed of thought and I was betraying her mission by lingering, so I put the pen down. And it is better to read this book that way, in my opinion, and I had more fun. Here's my favourite quote:

" I may not have meaning but it is the same lack of meaning that the pulsing vein has. "

  100 YEARS OF SOLITUDE

  GABRIEL GARCIA MARQUEZ


  Date published: -- 1967

  Original language: -- Spanish

  Translator: -- Gregory Rabassa

  Time read: -- approx. aug.2025


SPOILER-FREE REC:
This book COMPLETELY warps your sense of time. It feels like a fever dream. I think six (?) generations go by in these 400 pages so you can imagine how disoriteningly fast time goes by. In an "about the author" article I read, it said, paraphrased, that when Gabriel Marquez was a child he would listen to many of his grandparents' stories and that they told the logical ones with the same expression as they told the magical ones. I can definiteley see how those childhood stories affectes Marquez's writing because in this book there is a thin, thin border between reality and fantasy. If you'd like to read a surreal story where the main character is essentially a last name, this book's for you.

" Many years later, as he faced the firing squad, Colonel Aureliano Buendia was to remember that distant afternoon when his father took him to discover ice. "

THOUGHTS!! ^•^

I actually really liked this book. It reminds me a lot of Wuthering Heights because both of their plots are centered around a certain bloodline and house(s). My favourite part of the book was the section about the war, I think my fav character might've been Colonel Aureliano. I thought his character was interesting because I love to read about a good descent into madness and a slow corruption. It was sad to see how he let that friend of his get killed, and I like this quote said by Aureliano's other close friend.

" "Watch out for your heart, Aureliano," Colonel Gerineldo Marquez would say to him then. "You're rotting alive." "

I was happy to see Colonel Aureliano finally get back to himself and decide not to kill his best friend. I also really loved how the author writes about the characters' deaths -- they're all so strange and bittersweet, especially Arcadio's and Amaranta's.

" In the shattered schoolhouse where for the first time he had felt the security of power, a few feet from the room where he had come to know the uncertainty of love, Arcadio found the formality of death ridiculous. Death really did not matter to him but life did, and therefore the sensation he felt when they gave their decision was not a feeling of fear but of nostalgia. "

In general I really liked the "crazy" situations that the author sprinkles in every once in a while. I wish we got more of that Jose Arcadio Segundo (the one who survived the massacre at the station.) Those few pages were disturbing -- J.A.S waking up next to thousands of corpses, having to crawl his way back covered in blood, and no one believing him. (By the way, what's with all this memory loss in the book and how characters don't believe any events that happened not even remotely in the past? It really reminds me of Nineteen Eighty-Four and the idea that the past doesn't exist and it can be manipulated as easily as people's minds can be manipulated.) The paralels/references are also something I really liked and that Ursula's right, that it really does feel like time goes in circles and eventually repeats itself.

" When he recognized his great-grandmother's voice he turned his head toward the door, tried to smile, and without knowing it repeated an old phrase of Ursula's.
     "What did you expect?" he murmured. "Time passes."
     "That's how it goes," Ursula said, "but not so much."
      When she said it she realized that she was giving the same reply that Colonel Aureliano Buendia had given in his death cell, and once more she shuddered with the evidence that time was not passing, as she had just admitted, but that it was turning in a circle. "

Overall I really liked the book, even though it was hard to get through all that pedophillia and incest. In a small way I see this book as a warning not to repeat the past's mistakes (don't have kids with your damn cousins!) as it, and everyone's ignorance towards the past (and towards themselves and others), eventually contributed to the downfall of Macondo and/or the Buendia bloodline.

" [...] everything written on them was unrepeatable since time immemorial and forever more, because races condemned to one hundred years of solitude did not have a second oppurtunity on earth. "

**The reviews below are old, taken from my personal journal and written before i had a website to log them. Because they weren't intended to be seen, they are undetailed and not a true representation of my thoughts and are therefore meant to be forgotten by you if read. However, any recs are recent and genuine!**


  THE CATCHER IN THE RYE

  J.D. SALINGER


  Year published: -- 1951

  Time read: -- approx. july.2025







UNSEASONED THOUGHTS

finished the catcher in the rye, i really liked it! he's such a negative person but i relate to his uncertainty about the future. i wish he found out where the ducks go when the pond freezes over.

  PALE FIRE

  VLADIMIR NABOKOV


  Year published: -- 1962

  Time read: -- approx. june.2025






SPOILER-FREE REC:
Amazing "unreliable narrator" type of book. The unconventional composition of this piece of fiction is interesting--it consists of an introduction by the character C. Kinbote, a 100-line poem by J. Shade, Kinbote's commentary on the poem (the main part), and an index (don't skip the index!). Except, the commentary isn't what you think it'll be about. While you uncover details about the lives of these two characters, I strongly suggest you take notes. Solving puzzles are fun, especially when they're beautifully written.

" I was the shadow of the waxwing slain
By the false azure in the windowpane;
I was the smudge of ashen fluff--and I
Lived on, flew on, in the reflected sky. "

UNSEASONED THOUGHTS

[...] also i just finished pale fire IT'S SO GOOD. i think nabokov is currently my favourite author; he writes so beautifully and about such strange subject matter, it's bold. pale fire has such an interesting and unique composition, unlike any i've ever seen. i think he basically invented the genre "hypertext," i think it's called? i have house of leaves on my shelf i'll give it a read towards the end of summer maybe. when i finished pale fire i was so confused and didn't understand anything of what i read. afterward i watched a youtube vid explaining the "plot" and the "meaning" of the book and it's just so damn clever!! i'm so devastated that i didn't figure it out on my own. my biggest regret in life is that i didn't take notes on pale fire. i hope i'll forget its contents in a few years so that i can revisit it and annotate the book and try to "solve" it myself. i think my next nabokov book is despair and then ador or ardor. what a brilliant writer. i have to sleep now.

  CATCH-22

  JOSEPH HELLER


  Year published: -- 1961

  Time read: -- approx. may.2025






UNSEASONED THOUGHTS

i just finished catch-22 and loved it. like all long books, it takes a while to get into the rhythm of it. i think it took a week or two to get through the first half, and two days to finish the nexy half. i love it so much--it's comedic but doesn't fail to highlight the horrors/absurdity of war. it reminds me a lot of salughterhouse-five. all the characters were so unique and i got attached to a lot of them. it made me so happy to find out that orr lived.

  WUTHERING HEIGHTS

  EMILY BRONTE


  Year published: -- 1847

  Time read: -- approx. march.2025






SPOILER-FREE REC:
Read this one during early spring or late autumn lol. What stuck with me the most is the ambiance of the whole book. Wuthering Heights is a slow read with many detestable characters but it's all somehow very fun. You will like this one if you're a fan of classics with a somber mood, but good luck understanding what the hell Joseph's saying.

“ He wanted all to lie in an ecstasy of peace; I wanted all to sparkle and dance in a glorious jubilee. I said his heaven would be only half alive; and he said mine would be drunk: I said I should fall asleep in his; and he said he could not breathe in mine. ”

UNSEASONED THOUGHTS

i just finished wuthering heights, it's really good. definitely gonna be one of those books i'll remember the feeling of my whole life. first word that comes to mind when describing this book is atmospheric. emily bronte writes environment so well, it's so memorable. but oh my, all the characters were so damn detestable. it's like everyone who comes near heathcliff becomes the worst versions of themselves. i loved the journey of witnessing those 2 generations go by in those 2 households. i think healthcliff's character is so fascinating. my favourite moments in the book were his speech by the tree after catherine's death and when he was talking about catherine's grave. i loved the book's ending. happy ending. they seem like they're gonna live good lives. it was so relieving to witness because finally they get to have peace and relax. heathcliff realizing he doesnt have it in him anymore, to be so damn hateful, and dying after having experienced heaven for only a few days. i do wonder what he was doing in the woods overnight. probably walking with catherine. i'm happy for him, for them all.

  FAHRENHEIT 451

  RAY BRADBURY


  Year published: -- 1953

  Time read: -- approx. february-march.2025






SPOILER-FREE REC:
A classic dystopian novel, not too long, and is somehow more relevant today than at the time it was published. This was written when TVs were becoming a major thing in american households and the story centers around the evolution of technology and how a futuristic society has willingly traded their ability to think for themselves in exchange for entertainment (sounds familiar, huh?). I really loved the ending. There aren't any spoilers in my "unseasoned thoughts" below, just has my favourite quote.


UNSEASONED THOUGHTS

"grandfather's been dead all these years, but if you lifted my skull, by god, in the convolutions of my brain you'd find the big ridges of his thumbprint." just finished fahrenheit 451 and oh my.


here are some books i read before the creation (aug.15.25) of my media garden, ordered from latest to oldest.
the bullet point means it was significant to me
THE SETTING SUN -- O. Dazai
●AGUA VIVA -- C. Lispector
THE CATCHER IN THE RYE -- J. Salinger
●PALE FIRE -- V. Nabokov
WHY FISH DON'T EXIST -- L. Miller
THE FALL -- A. Camus
●1984 -- G. Orwell
THE BELL JAR -- S. Plath
●CATCH-22 -- J. Heller
●THE OUTSIDER -- A. Camus
●WUTHERING HEIGHTS -- E. Bronte
●FAHRENHEIT 451 -- R. Bradbury
WHITE NIGHTS -- F. Dostoevsky
●THE MASTER AND MARGARITA -- M. Bulgakov
ANNA KARENINA -- L. Tolstoy
DIARY OF AN OXYGEN THIEF -- A.
THE TRIAL -- F. Kafka
METAMORPHOSIS -- F. Kafka
THE HOUSE OF THE DEAD -- F. Dostoevsky
●SLAUGHTERHOUSE-5 -- K. Vonnegut
●THE ROAD -- C. McCarthy
●THE PICTURE OF DORIAN GRAY -- O. Wilde
A SHORT STAY IN HELL -- S. Peck
FEAR STALKS THE LAND! -- T. Yorke & S. Donwood
●THE PLAGUE -- A. Camus
THE CASTLE -- F. Kafka
●LOLITA -- V. Nabokov
THE SECRET HISTORY -- D. Tartt
NO COUNTRY FOR OLD MEN -- C. McCarthy
●FRANKENSTEIN -- M. Shelley
BROTHERS KARAMAZOV -- F. Dostoevsky
●FIGHT CLUB -- C. Palahniuk
AMERICAN PSYCHO -- B.E. Ellis
THINNER -- S. King
YOU LIKE IT DARKER -- S. King
LORD OF THE FLIES -- W. Golding
HARLAN ELLISON'S GREATEST HITS [●I HAVE NO MOUTH BUT I MUST SCREAM]
●BLOOD MERIDIAN -- C. McCarthy
ANIMAL FARM -- G. Orwell
NOTES FROM UNDERGROUND -- F. Dostoevsky
●CRIME AND PUNISHMENT -- F. Dostoevsky
MISERY -- S. King
●PET SEMETARY -- S. King